I have been doing GREAT in keeping up with my exercise. I’m averaging 7-8 miles a week. :) I do intervals of running and walking. It’s great.
I’ve been slacking on my water intake these past few days. Part of that is due to the time of the month, but I need to bring it back up.
I’ve been doing OK on my eating. I had some great days, some ok days, and today: a CRAPPY day. I Binged. I had McDonalds breakfast. (Sausage mcmuffin, hashbrown, iced coffee) Then, for lunch I had TACO BELL! (Soft taco, nachos, and a pop.)
I ate the taco, and then 1/2 way through the nachos went “What the fuck am I doing? I could have said no to this.” So I got up and threw the rest of the nachos away. It sucks. I WAS stronger than that, but I didn’t listen. I was gave in without putting up a fight.
So, then I was on some boards, poking around, sipping on my soda. (First of the week.) Now, as I’ve mentioned before, we would like to have a baby. We’ve been trying for awhile now. Almost a year. I’m a worrier, and so I was looking at some a “trouble trying to conceive” board, and saw someone mention that they have to be certain weight to get IVF. I decided to look it up. I had no idea that if we needed to move on to something like this (which, again, I’m worrying about this way too early, I know.) I need to lose like 75 lbs.
Even though it might never come to that, it really opened my eyes about why I am doing this for my health. It’s not “oh damn. I binged today. I’ll do better later.” It became “look what you did. You can get back on the horse, but it will be one day longer. It will be another lb I need to lose.” It’s not worth it.
The reality is I may not need this. But I might. Would I want to wait until then to do something about it? If I try for another year, and have to get IVF, I want to be ready to go for it. I don’t want to have to wait even longer just to lose the weight.
Needless to say: I dumped the ENTIRE soda. I grabbed a water bottle, and am busy planning the rest of my day. I will be getting an extra workout in, to help off-set my bad choices today. It’s time to open my eyes. It’s not just weight loss. It’s health. It’s my future.
Being healthy > taco bell. The end.